I’ve missed at least three deadlines and a doctor’s appointment this week. I’m sorry if you were one of the people I let down. I’ve reached my limit and I know it!
One of my children had to go back to Renown (where they were admitted 2 weeks ago) via ambulance from school yesterday. They sent us home last night so that we could go to a previously-scheduled appointment today (fastest treatment plan). We went to that appointment with hospital bags packed, in case we got admitted to Saint Mary’s (other main hospital in Reno) today, but by God’s grace, those bags were not needed.
My child will not be allowed to attend school again until at least Oct. 8, and will have an MRI as soon as insurance approves. Vision is the immediate concern, as yesterday’s hit to the head darkened this child’s eyesight dramatically, now only seeing lights, or details about two inches from the nose, about 17% vision.
The bigger scare is that this is day 18 of the underlying medical crisis we still don’t have clear answers over. We now counted about 11 major (and a few minor) events in 2 1/2 weeks.
Rick is out of country until Friday night. He has been amazingly supportive to the best of his ability, but it is really hard on him to be so far away. Please pray for our other kids too. Our parents and adult son are taking up all the driving duties as I’m still without a driver’s license since my strokes.
Physically I’m utterly fatigued, exhausted. I fell asleep today in the length of time it took a son to go get a drink of water. We were talking when he came home, while I rested in bed after a medically-intensive day. He was thirsty, so ran to the kitchen for a drink. When he came back a moment later, I was asleep. He tried to tiptoe out of the room, but the phone jolted me awake. Our entire family is in desperate need of long, refreshing, restorative sleep tonight.
I don’t have words to even try to describe God’s grace and peace in the midst of this storm though. I’m afraid any attempt will come off sounding corny. Simply know this. Life is very hard. God’s love is so much bigger!